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I had no models for what a trans man was, except the vague unease that in order to be myself, I was going to have to betray feminism. Women who flipped the finger to the universe, picked up their beakers or strapped on their flight goggles and did what they needed to do. I had models, though sometimes flawed, of women who had gone before me.

IвЂ™d carved out an existence within the versions of womanhood opened up by feminism in which I felt it my duty to fight for any masculinity I wanted.

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You see, I knew how to function as a gender defying young woman. And, second, after it sank in over a few days, I felt like I had crawled out of bed one morning to discover that I had no face. First, I stammered out some вЂњwell, I donвЂ™t knowвЂќ answer because I had honestly never considered that I got a say in the matter of my own gender up until that point. In any case, it had not even occurred to me that it was possible to be trans male-transgender people were exclusively trans feminine in my experience-until I was in a group of comic artists discussing gender, and one of them said, вЂњYeah, but you identify as female, right?вЂќ I didnвЂ™t know that Boys DonвЂ™t Cry was about a trans man until after I had come out.

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I had no idea that it was about a trans man because it was described to me as, вЂњA movie about a girl who pretends to be a boy and gets murdered.вЂќ Since Brandon Teena was played by Hilary Swank, that seemed like a likely description. I didnвЂ™t watch that because the film didnвЂ™t sound interesting to me, just depressing. вЂњBut, Keffy,вЂќ I can hear some of you say, having correctly done the math and knowing IвЂ™m not that old, вЂњwhat about Boys DonвЂ™t Cry? WasnвЂ™t that about a trans man?вЂќ Jokes and/or whispers I overheard about how so-and-so got a sex change.Until I was 20 and wandered away from my college campus to meet the locals who practically lived in an independent coffee shop a mile or so away, my experiences of trans people were limited to: (My own parents are considerably more liberal, but left LGBTQ discussions for, вЂњwell, thatвЂ™s a thing that happens to other peopleвЂ™s children.вЂќ) Or that one extremely pitiful-to-my-memory gay guy in As Good As It Gets. The references in adult media were filtered through daytime talk shows or the Rush Limbaugh-listening parents of friends. There were oblique references, but typically not in the media that I was given to consume as a child. To be fair, I also grew up with very little cisgender queer representation of any depth or value, either. I grew up without any transgender representation of any depth or value. Additionally, if you Google вЂњTropes about Transgender people,вЂќ you are likely to end up on a WordPress site named вЂњTransgenderTropes101.вЂќ This is a hate site and is best avoided. TW: This essay includes frank discussion of anti-trans tropes, rapes, murders, and hate crimes.